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SPEECHES FROM THE FRONT LINES OF #MILLIONSMISSING: TASHA & ZARA

Tasha

Hi, my name is Tasha and I’ve had ME for 20 years. Like many of us, my case started with an infection – a tropical illness I caught in Angola.  For several years afterwards, my health went haywire. I would get regular throat and other infections with flu-like symptoms and I started to experience a new, extremely intense kind of fatigue, particularly after exercise or prolonged standing.  No physician could figure it out and it wasn’t until almost three years later that I got diagnosed with ME. By year 5 after the start of my illness, I was lucky enough to have recovered to 95% of my former health.  Maybe I got lucky with treatment, maybe the carefully paced lifestyle. Who knows? But just two years later, a few months after the birth of my daughter when I was a happy new mother, the illness came back – suddenly and unexpectedly and much worse than before. It was like having a familiar but completely different illness.

Because of the name “chronic fatigue syndrome”, people often think they can relate to this illness, but most truly have no idea what it really means.

  • Because of this disease, I had to spend a whole year of my life in bed – and I mean lying flat on my back 80% of my waking hours every day. Waking up in the morning and hearing the chitter-chatter in the street when the children went to school and adults went to work and still being there in that same place hours later when everyone came home.
  • Because of this disease, I was not able to look after my own child. The physical demands of caring for a young infant meant that after a few hours I was so sick that I would have to call my husband to come home from work to take care of her.
  • Because of this disease, I am disabled. I haven’t been able to walk more than a couple of blocks in 12 years or stand upright for more than a few minutes without being severely incapacitated afterwards, sometimes for days. I cannot do basic tasks of daily living like cook meals, clean, take public transport to work and I have needed a lot of accommodations in order to work at all.

I still feel inside like the young adventurous 23 year old I was when I got this disease. I instinctively want to do so many things I can’t – travel, play ping pong when I see people playing, dance at weddings, or walk to the coffee shop to buy myself a cup of coffee. But one thing does feel different about me from 20 years ago. I wish it wasn’t the case. And that is that I’m angry.  I’m angry with the federal government and with the medical establishment.  I’m angry at how our disease has been neglected and how we are being treated.

I am doing my part to make sure that if my daughter or my daughter’s daughter gets this horrible illness, that there will be a cure for her. I’ve managed to work, have paid taxes to the government, and have participated in a number of research studies. I just became a U.S. citizen last month.

But we’ve watched and waited and hoped for years now (and many patients have fought hard) – and the federal government has done next to nothing. When a serious disease is being ignored or overlooked, it is the role of the federal government to step in to level the playing field. In the case of ME/CFS, the burden of that responsibility should be felt even more keenly, given the damage the federal government has done by naming the illness CFS, expropriating funds, condoning unsafe and unhelpful treatment, and failing to raise medical and public awareness.

There are so many nasty illnesses out there but I believe that “chronic fatigue syndrome” is unique in the stigma it carries along with the lack of medical and public understanding. I can think of no other disease where the reality of the impact on people’s lives and the designated name and medical response are so completely out of sync.

It’s time for the federal government to step up by investing some serious research funding and run a sustained education campaign.  Also, it is time to change the name. There is no excuse for delay. If we can’t agree and if we’re not ready for a permanent name, then we need a placeholder name.  And we need it now.

Zara

Hello, my name is Zara, and this is my mother. I have never been able to run with my mother, nor play soccer with her, or go bowling with her. I have lived the past 13 years of my life with a mother who cannot do many of the things that I can. She has had this illness for seven more years than I have lived. And she has struggled, and fought, and hoped for developments. But little have come.

ME/CFS is very different to most illnesses, because it is often not apparent. If you look at my mother, you would not be able to tell that she is sick; but she is. And because of this, she faces judgments and prejudice all of the time. I remember a particular incident at the airport, in which a cart up picked my mother, father and I because my mother could not walk to the boarding area. A woman next to my mother, who was fairly old, and had a cast on her leg, started to get confused. She said something like “I have a broken leg, I need a ride, why do you?”. My father got in an argument with her, but the woman could not seem to grasp the idea that my mother was sick, and began to yell at her. Eventually, we left, with the woman yelling behind us. This is just one example of what my mother faces all of the time.

This rally will hopefully bring more awareness to an illness that has sat in the dark for years. The government has paid little attention to this illness, and the British government didn’t even acknowledge it. Sometimes, I find that the things you can’t see are more important than the things you can. Thank you.

Categories: #MillionsMissing, Arts & Letters, Awareness, Opinion, Severe ME, United Kingdom, United States

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One comment on “SPEECHES FROM THE FRONT LINES OF #MILLIONSMISSING: TASHA & ZARA
  1. mark says:

    Hi zara & Tasha,
    Im so sorry to Hear your Story, like You guys there is Many Many millions of us, were families of Mother , Husband , Kid’s of the marriege are ill, and yes the goverment ignore that, they distract the public and pay attention to minor illness,like Sitka etc.. that post no threat to public health in an esffort to cover up our illness, it’s more than obvious from the very beginning that Me is a real illness , that start from the base of an immune dusfuntion allowing viruses to enter our protected essential body parts like brain barrier and organs, mitchocondrias etc.. and here is our biggest problem!!! have you ever wonder why the goverment clrearly knowing the severity of this illness have ignored and keep ignoring and covering up research???? have you ?? the answere you will find It when you google Dr Defritas and you see how 25 years ago she made a huge study were she found a retrovirus that look like htlv-1-2.. but far more complex do to the fact that could infect both T cells and B cells, but also like no other virus the Mitchocondrias, in most of Me/CFS patients , when she show all the findings to NIH , they automatically stop funding to her study and shot it down, she accused NIH of ignoring this facts , she accused and warned the NIH that a world pandemic will occur if the ignore this findings( wich is what we are seen today ) they warned that this virus was trouble becouse I can enter the Mitchocondrias witch is the body’s main source of energy , she misteriously had a fatal accident that was later force to retire, look at mikovits?? her and Frank Ruscceti most respected knowledgeble RETROVURUS hunter in the world, they found similar evidence of retriviruses like AIDS with Htlv caracteristics XMRV , and again under conspirancy circumstances their findings were destroyed as well as their careers and life .. when you put together the dismissal cover up of the goverments and this actions and many other facts you can find online of golfwarillness , you will quickly realize why they still blocking research or any findings on this illness, and why the good doctors like Montoya like Nancy Klimas don’t pursuit any more the possibility of retrovirus as a cause of this illness!!
    !! they don’t want to end up destroyed or death like many others, they love their career and care for Me, but they also have a Life and their family to protect.

    All the evidences and facts Point to Thesame place a RETROVIRUS , most likly Man made, most likely by our goverments have implications is the only explanation to their ( neglected ) on purpose malísious position to this illness!!!

    Please post my comment, dont do like Many other ones never post it.
    Everything im saying here You can find it All over internet, please let people deside if they want to believe it or not.

    Thanks

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